I had a nightmare that an angry elephant was trapped in the inner rooms of my house. It was going ape shit, smashing & stomping. I remember closing the doors running with my kids telling them “We have to get out of here there is a mad elephant trying to kill us!”
I’m not prone to silly nightmares. I am one of those adults who often wakes thrashing & screaming. Who in the dark isn’t sure what is real and what isn’t. Minor flaw, unless you sleep next to me.
I shrugged off the silly elephant dream and the next night had a dream an angry nursing cougar mom was in my house and the only way to calm her down would be to give her a much needed bath.
No, I haven’t been smoking anything…but I have been doing something not so normal for me. I have been letting other people’s bad behaviors & negativity affect me. I stand with my favorite x-sister-in-law “No one has the power to make my day bad. I am the only one with that power.”
I get cut off in line or on the road I figure they must have a good reason. Someone openly lies to me or steals from me I thinking there must be a reason why they need to do these things. My beloved dog was hit & killed (a few mouths back). And although I agree it is most logical the driver knew and left my dog to die in the street I FEEL the driver must have not known he hit him.
A few days ago I got pretty viciously nailed in my car by a truck running a red light. The driver fled. I was never angry, a little scared, but mostly grateful for the chance to see the kindness of a stranger. Angry just doesn’t stick to me very well. Because someone like me can’t afford it. If I was to let Angry in it would be like that elephant, it would destroy what & who I am. It would take away what I earned that summer day so long ago when I packed a bag, took my children, & left for higher ground.
When the Boy called this morning with his flight info I told him about my car and how I had almost been driving his. He told me he wished it had been his car rather than mine because he has full coverage and he knows I don’t.
Well, if that isn’t the elephant in the room I don’t know what is. I have a return to make. I have bought something I can’t afford. Here Mr. Universe is your Anger back, in-store Karma will be just fine.
Spend enough love each day for a lifetime because you never know what the next day may bring. You can never go back, only on. ~mlb
I need a little time to look around.
“It feels curiously like holding your breath under water. Eyes shut tight, mouth closed, you could try to convince yourself to inhale but you know it won’t work. Your body won’t betray you like your mind will. You would never attempt to take air underwater the same way you would never jump over the rail. Ludicrous really, all of it, being underwater thinking about breathing, being on the edge thinking about jumping. And being next to him. One moment he is looking away. The wind is blowing. He turns and smiles. It feels like you have taken a lung full of water, like your foot is where your hand should be, and you are about to drown from jumping over an unthinkable edge. The impact is solid. You haven’t just fallen in love with him you have always been in love with him. His smile widens spreading into his eyes. That’s right, you are the last to know.” ~Racing the Devil, by mlb~ 
We've got cousins, lots of cousins. So for Christmas we are making them all something yummy! 
Every year I give my kids a the means to give a gift to a charity. For years we trucked blankets to Primary Children's Medical Center to the NICU a couple of years gifting toys to the Surgical Units and the Burn Center at the U. But since Beach has been on board she moved us away from people to her passion: Animals. 
In the spirit of Simple I needed to limit the gift to one. So what will it be? Dog food for the shelter, cat toys, perhaps cookies for the nurses at the ER Vet where Kilo died?
I had a nightmare that an angry elephant was trapped in the inner rooms of my house. It was going ape shit, smashing & stomping. I remember closing the doors running with my kids telling them “We have to get out of here there is a mad elephant trying to kill us!”
I shrugged off the silly elephant dream and the next night had a dream an angry nursing cougar mom was in my house and the only way to calm her down would be to give her a much needed bath.
No, I haven’t been smoking anything…but I have been doing something not so normal for me. I have been letting other people’s bad behaviors & negativity affect me. I stand with my favorite x-sister-in-law “No one has the power to make my day bad. I am the only one with that power.”
Ski Free After Three sometimes encounters technical difficulties: like Utah mountain weather & the canyon crawl. But to make sure it wasn't anything more than the usual we checked the radio: Little and Big Cottonwoods Canyons are open. Chains or 4-wheel-drive required. Quality of driving conditions vary please drive with caution.
The tights are a give away that she's a local.
I should be and could be a whole lot of things today but sometimes you just have to stop & listen to your heart. Mine says: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.
This was Colby & Fisher's first trip through the new Natural History Museum of Utah. 
